all alone

2007-08-30T07:45:00.000-07:00

CHERIE I LOVE YOUU!!
<3!! we had so much that day! *MUAHH*

2007-08-21T05:27:00.000-07:00

As life goes on I'm starting to learn more and more about responsibility
And I realize that everything I do is affecting the people around me
So I want to take this time out to apologize for things that
I've done things that haven't occurred yet
and things that they don't want to take responsibility for

I'm sorry for the times that I left you home
I was on the road and you were alone
I'm sorry for the times that I had to go
I'm sorry for the fact that I did not know

That you were sitting home just wishing we
Could go back to when it was just you and me
I'm sorry for the times I would neglect
I'm sorry for the times I disrespect

I'm sorry for the wrong things that I've done
I'm sorry I'm not always there for my son
I'm sorry for the fact that I'm not aware
That you can't sleep at night when I am not there

Because I'm in the streets like everyday
I'm sorry for the things that I did not say
Like how you are the best thing in my world
And how I'm so proud to call you my girl

I understand that there's some problems
And I'm not too blind to know
All the pain you kept inside you
Even though you might not show

If I can't apologize for being wrong
Then it's just a shame on me
I'll be the reason for your pain
And you can put the blame on me

You can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me

Said you can put the blame on me
Said you can put the blame on me
Said you can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me

I'm sorry for the things that he put you through
And all the times you didn't know what to do
I'm sorry that you had to go and sell those bags
Just trying to stay busy until you heard from dad

When you would rather be home with all your kids
As one big family with love and bliss
And even though pops treated us like kings
He got a second wife and you didn't agree

He got up and left you there all alone
I'm sorry that you had to do it on your own
I'm sorry that I went and added to your grief
I'm sorry that your son was once a thief

I'm sorry that I grew up way to fast
I wish I would of listened and not be so bad
I'm sorry that your life turned out this way
I'm sorry that the feds came and took me away

I understand that there's some problems
And I'm not too blind to know
All the pain you kept inside you
Even though you might not show

If I can't apologize for being wrong
Then it's just a shame on me
I’ll be the reason for your pain
And you can put the blame on me

You can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me

Said you can put the blame on me
Said you can put the blame on me
Said you can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me

I'm sorry that it took so long to see
But they were dead wrong trying to put it on me
I'm sorry that it took so long to speak
But I was on tour with Gwen Stefani

I'm sorry for the hand that she was dealt
And for the embarrassment that she felt
She's just a little young girl trying to have fun
But daddy should of never let her out that young

I'm sorry for Club Zen getting shut down
I hope they manage better next time around
How was I to know she was underage
In a 21 and older club they say

Why doesn't anybody want to take blame
Verizon backed out disgracing my name
I'm just a singer trying to entertain
Because I love my fans I'll take that blame

Even though the blame's on you
Even though the blame's on you
Even though the blame's on you
I'll take that blame from you

And you can put that blame on me
And you can put that blame on me
You can put that blame on me
You can put that blame on me

And you can put that blame on me

And you can put that blame on me

2007-08-10T07:45:00.000-07:00

"Soulmate"

Incompatible, it don't matter though
'cos someone's bound to hear my cry
Speak out if you do
You're not easy to find

Is it possible Mr. Loveable
Is already in my life?
Right in front of me
Or maybe you're in disguise

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone

Here we are again, circles never end
How do I find the perfect fit
There's enough for everyone
But I'm still waiting in line

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone

If there's a soulmate for everyone
Most relationships seem so transitory
They're all good but not the permanent one

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone
If there's a soulmate for everyone

2007-08-09T20:39:00.000-07:00

FUCK those who try and hurt my mother! they'll definitely ROT in hell!

2007-06-18T22:57:00.000-07:00

B to the O to the R to the ED!

BORED

2007-06-04T21:36:00.001-07:00

Baby i will wait for you
if you think i'm fine
that just ain't true
i really need you in my life
no matter what i have to do i'll wait for you
what will it take to make you come back
i told you what it is and i just don't like that
baby why can't we just start all over again
get it back to the way it was
ifyou gave me a chance i can loveyou right
but your'e telling me it won't be enough
Baby i will wait for you

2007-05-31T06:44:00.000-07:00

Some pictures from uncle steven's b'dae! haha woohoo we had LOTSA whoopie funn!!

2007-05-28T08:08:00.000-07:00

CONFIRMATION! haha FINALLY! haha

2007-05-26T08:40:00.000-07:00

Those are my most precious drawingss! haha i love those so much! PEEWHEET! haha

2007-05-22T07:50:00.000-07:00

Its alright
I'm okay
I think god can explain
I believe i'm the same
I get carried away
I'm relifed
I'm relaxed
I'll get over it

2007-05-20T06:42:00.001-07:00

Oh wells i'm gonna start like this!
you've been friends for like AGES
and now when you've mixed around with someone MORE loaded and stuff
you actually abandoned like someone you've no idea you abandoned!
its like WTF were you thinking?
omg!
friends shouldn't be treating friends in this manner
if you just hate her presence you SAY IT TO HER FACE!
like why be such a LOOSER you mothaf*****!
GOSH!
you think treating her like this is hella cool?
OH COM'ON!
its NOT
and i swear its NOT!
so if you still continue like this than GOSH!
get you're mothaf****ing ass outta' here!
i can't see you hurt her the way you're doing and GOSH i can't take it!
so stop all these nonsense!
you morphodite shit!

2007-05-18T05:23:00.001-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY cheryl YEO! hahah <3>

it was CHERYL'S b'dae and omg we had hella FUN!

omg haha we wenta island creamery to EAT MUD PIEE! haha yummm--miee! haha

mm than later we proceded to TOWN haha and we took a cab there haha and omg the taxi driver is a PERVERT! gross i say!

well this is how it begined... well it was raining and a car almost banged us but THANKS to the taxi driver we were saved haha well thats not the POINT mm well anyways so i said :OH NO WE'RE GONNA DIE

and he replied: ISN'T IT GOOD TO DIE A VIRGIN?

and i replied: HOW YOU KNOW I'MMA' VIRGIN? WHAT IF I'M NOT

than he replied: THAN I'LL BE THE LUCKIEST MANN ON EARTH!

*GASPS* omg what was that all about? hahaha

2007-05-16T19:20:00.000-07:00

NO SCHOOL TODAYY! ahahaha ah !!
F-I-N-A-L-LY
haha my brain gets its needed rest! haha
oh wells
i'm going island creamery later to celebrate CHERYL yeo's b'dae
haha
mann i hope we will have fun which i'm SUPER sure we will! hahah
and we'll sing cheryl yeo a HAP HAP HAPPY birthday song!
hahaha

2007-05-16T06:05:00.000-07:00

The RUN times hahahha at chuch or rather after church!

MM oh mann its been so long since i blogged! haha

mm well F-I-N-A-L-L-Y haha the exams are OVER haha

and i'mma' FREE woman! whee~

hahahahah TRALALLA

THIS IS WHAT I'M TALKING BOUT! haha

ifyou aint got no money take you're broke ass home! hahahah :D

2007-04-27T03:38:00.000-07:00

OH me OH my!

my life is like that now! so darn miserable and fucked up!!

what has happened last year IS going to happen this year! and DAMN i just know that it'll happen agaiN!

sheesh! i'm so vexed with..............

DAMN!

i can't stand it no more !

argh!

2007-04-26T06:36:00.000-07:00

OMG i can't believe how a person changes so damn fast!
He/she was the well kinda of person i would love to hang out wwith
BUT wtf is he/her problem!
why did you change so drastically
what reasons?
you dumb block!
you think this is the BEST way to get wha tyou want?
you really think so?
AW c'mon!
STOP kidding yourself!

2007-04-24T03:38:00.000-07:00

OMG i've just completed my 2.4 km runn!
TADA i'm still alivvee yo!! haha
damn haha i can;t believe i actually completed it without walking that MUCH! haha
woowhooo!! haha damn! i'm da BOMBZ*
haha that was self praised!
but gosh! i'm the happiest person on earth right noww!
haha
LIFE has meaning
LIFE is good

2007-04-23T07:11:00.000-07:00

oh mann life is so fragile
the wrong move and there it goess! ):
i can't believe how a life can end like this
just by making the wrong moves or by making the wrong decisions..
i've heard many people say that we should think before we act
but..sometimes thinking just isn't right like probably you did it in a moment of folly
but its a mistake
and you know it..but yet! life jsut ends this way!
i wish my life would last a lil' longer
but sometimes theres this urge to end it
but thinking of what happened
i think i'd rather preserve it to the fullest
make the best i can out of it
YES i'll do that
but its gonna take a long along time to get used to the changes i'm making to my life!
but i'll have to try
damn i know i'm feeling kinda emoo
well i've just saw something bad happen and it just made me realize how impt life is to me

2007-04-22T02:04:00.000-07:00

OMGOSH! my mids are nearing and i'm starting to feel the stress all over again
this feeling of stress which i don't think i'm supposed to feel is coming backk!
lotsa people are expecting me to get like WOOHOO results! but i'mafraid i may just let them down.
eveyttime i try to um put myself in a study mood
everything goes wrong!
i'll feel like sleeping than i'll just DOZE off on the spot!
gosh! sometimes i feel thast i'm letting my parents down!
but who knows i'm feeling this way?
who would even bother!
DAMN sometimes i jsut feel that i dont' wanna go through this kinda pain !
but gerr NOBODY knows!

2007-04-20T08:25:00.000-07:00

MICHELLE tann haha i LOVE YOU! haha

MICHELLE tann! haha >3 lovess youu! haha

she helped me make this colage! haha

2007-04-20T08:01:00.000-07:00

THIS, was what i gave my bitch! haha <3>

2007-04-16T03:59:00.000-07:00

I’m over your lies
And I’m over your games
I’m over you asking me
When you know I’m not okay
You call me at night
And I pick up the phone
And though you be tellin’ me
I know you’re not alone
Oh and that’s why your eyes
I’m over it
Your smile
I’m over it
Realized I’m over it,
I’m over it
I’m over it
Wanting you to be wanting me
No that ain’t no way to be
How I feel, read my lips
Because I’m so over( I'm so)
Movin’ on, it’s my time
You never were a friend of mine
Hurt at first, a little bit
But now I’m so overI
’m so over it
I’m over your hands
And I’m over your mouth
Trying to drag me down and fill me with self doubt
Oh and that’s why your world
I’m over it
So sure I’m over it
I’m not your girl I’m over it,
I’m over it
I’m over it

2007-04-13T02:34:00.000-07:00

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cried
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie is made up on your side
When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK I miss you
I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do reminds me of you
And the clothes you left they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you I love the things that you do
When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the dayAnd make it OK I miss you
We were made for each other Out here forever I know we were Yeah
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I do I give my heart and soul I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me Yeah
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear will always get me through the dayAnd make it OK
I miss you

USELESS LIFE

2007-04-09T03:39:00.000-07:00

OMG i feel so retarded lately!
i've not been feeling happy NOT ONE BIT!
this morning
JUST this morning!
my gosh i took out my EZ-link card like ii always do..and wth!
it went missing!
i've been doing it for like the past 2 YEARS and nothing happened!
omg
WHY today! WHY!
and it was in the morning when i was leaving the house!
GEEZZ!
omgg i feel so annoyed and pissed!
i've got no mood to do anything at all NO MOOD!
i feel useless that i can't find my EZ-link card!
i feel annoyed because theres 2,4km run tmr! and i'm so going to die!
but HAH i guess nobody knows huh..
Sometimes i wish that well i wasn't born into this world
never born into this world..so that i wouldn't have to suffer the way i am now
so that i wouldn't have to feel any emotions
so that i wouldn't have to think of anything at all!
sometimes i just wish i could just vanish
VANISH into thin air where i'll jsut disappear from this world and no one would be missing me
all memories of me would be gone
all memories that i shared will be gone
VANISH!

9:

2007-04-08T07:19:00.000-07:00

WHAT LIFES BRING each day is what life is gonna end with!
i'm hella streesed lately that sometimes i wish school wans't even created!
i mean
whatha who the HECK said we haveta study!
WHO THE HECK said that studying was impt?
WHO!?

2007-04-03T01:36:00.000-07:00

I was never alive'
Til the day I was blessed with you
When I hold you late at night
I know what I was put here to do
I turn off the world and listen to you sigh
And I will sing my Angel's Lullaby
Know I'm forever near
The one you can always call
Right all you know to fear
Are the shadows on your wall
I'm here close enough
To kiss the tears you cry
And I will sing my Angel's Lullaby
So tell me how to stop the years from racing
Is there a secret someone knows?
I'll never catch all the memories I'm chasing
I'll never be ready to let go
And when the world seems cold
And you feel that all of your strength is gone
There may be one tiny voice
Your reason to carry on
And when I'm not close enough
To kiss the tears you cry
You will sing your Angel's Lullaby
Let this be our Angel's Lullaby

ANGEL'S LULLABY

2007-03-30T03:06:00.000-07:00

OMG!! look at the cool effecto babyo! haha aint it cool! life was fun at camp this is prove! <3

I love manda LOTSA! love lovee<3

whatha you doing? i guess we were having SOO much fun!! we forgot we look superly retarded!

i see you looking at me..like i'm some kinda freak

got a body you see..WHY DONT' YOU DO SOMETHING.

2007-03-29T05:42:00.000-07:00

CAM WHORING in the com lab..Shh! haha

STUDIOUSS! omg see how hard working we are (:

<3>

WE'RE HAVING SOO MUCH FUN IN SKL haha

but lately skls ahsn't been AS fun): no diea why either but.. its just NOT as fun *sobs sobs* argh

2007-03-20T03:53:00.000-07:00

Omg i hate this feeling of being not worthy in this world i HATE it and i'll nevr wanna live in it even if i had a 2nd chance!

mann sometimes its like this i guess i see myself and think that i'm not fit to be in this world or rather even live in it!

MY gothness ahh I LOVE IT <3

2007-03-14T23:33:00.000-07:00

I can see the pain living in your eyes And I know how hard you try You deserve to have much more I can feel your heart and I simpathize And I'll never criticize All you've ever meant to my life I don't want to let you down I don't want to lead you on i don't want to hold you back From where you might belong You would never ask me why My heart is so disguised I just can't live a lie anymore I would rather hurt myself Than to ever make you cry There's nothing left to say but goodbye You deserve the chance at the kind of love I'm not sure i'm worthy of Losing you is painful to me I don't want to let you down I don't want to lead you on i don't want to hold you back From where you might belong You would never ask me why My heart is so disguised I just can't live a lie anymore I would rather hurt myself Than to ever make you cry There's nothing left to say but goodbye You would never ask me why My heart is so disguised I just can't live a lie anymore I would rather hurt myself Than to ever make you cry There's nothing left to try Though it's gonna hurt us both There's no other way than to say goodbye

2007-03-11T07:03:00.000-07:00

MANN OH MANN!
School hols are here again!
hahahha XD
mm well lately i've been trying to contact someone but somehow the phone's always offed!
like wtf
i care about you and i wanan contact you
but you! YOU NEVER SEEM TO ON YER PHONE!
like what is you're bloody problem!?
OMG
you never told me where you were going
you never tell me anything anymore!
it makes me feel super hella USELESS manN!
i hope you reead my blogg still and know how i feel!
like how you used to read my blog everyday

2007-03-08T19:37:00.000-08:00

one day there was a fruit called grape, he was always cheerful, smlilng away like nothing in life was going wrong.But somehow deep down inside grape felt lonely but yet no one could tell how he felt! The pain he was feeling, the sorrows he was weepin' but NOone could hardly notice except one fruit called orange.Orange was always observing grape in whatever he does even the slightest change. eg, having' a good wash'

but now it all seems like a dream to grape

that orange that was always there for him was no moe in sight

that orange that would always notice him was ignoring him!

sometimes i feel so sorry for grape

he thought he found a great friend but somehow it turned out to be a fraut!

it was never meant to be

the friendship and everything

Things started to change when grape was 'unsolable'

he couldn't be the same as the rest and was NOT FOR SALE

thus' being different changes everything!

other fruits would treat him like dirt!

sometimes not even noticing that hes there.

but somehow i wish this fruit the best of luck

i hope that one day the friends that he makes would ALWAYS be there for him

not just when he needs them or whatsoever

but even in times where theres no need for a friend..!

2007-03-07T06:02:00.000-08:00

today is ma best friends' b'dae!

ALL RISE AND SING

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU <3

2007-03-06T06:22:00.000-08:00

DAM MY BABY SHE SO SWEET!

look what she did?! oooo I <3>

mm well she straightened her hair DREW the heart with a lipstick and took it down JUST FOR ME! aw how sweet can she get hurh! <<3

hahaXD i'm overjoyed i guess cause at least she cares *aww*

*hugss her real tight*

2007-03-06T06:18:00.000-08:00

AWW MANN! gerr my friends are going to TAMAN! ): and i'mw itht eh sec 1's *sobs sobs*
ROAR! haha XD
mm well well! (: i guess i made that choice and i guess its kinda too late to make changes to it anyways!
so just live with it i guess (:
mm well tralala tmr's the start of SEC 1 camp! DAMN* haha
mm i hope everything goes well
i hope i make friends with the mm SEC 3s this year (:
oh wells rahh lets wait and see

2007-03-05T06:24:00.000-08:00

Oooo check out we're being EMO as usual! ):

EMO EMO EMO! haha

Damn baby Just don't understand where we went wrong I gave you my heart I gave you my soul I gave you...As a matter of fact I was the one who said I love you firstIt was about eight years ago, don't act like you don't knowWe were sittin' at home in your mama's livin' roomCause, we couldn't be alone See your mama knew I was something else, she knew how I felt Back then we were in school; and that's your favourite excuse Growin' up I was a fool; and I can't lie I'm missing you Listen and don't trip I think I need a bottle with a genie in it Here's my wish list First one, I would create a heart changing love Second one, I'll take yours and fill it all the way up Third one, but I don't need a lot of wishes cause I'll be okay if I get one If I had one wish, we would be best friends Love would never end, it would just begin If I had one wish, you would be my boo Promise to love you, trust me I'll trust youIf I had one wish, we would run away Making love all day, have us a baby If I had one wish, I'd make you my whole life And you'd be my wife, make it right this time If I had one wish One wish, one wish, one wish One wish, one wish, one wish One wish, one wish, one wishOne wish, one wish, one wish Now tell me is this the only way I can get you right back in If so then searchin' I'll go, then I can have you for sho Then you'll be loving me, holding me, kissing me So girl don't tell me what I'm feeling is make believeI swear if I lose a second chance with you I wouldn't know what to do I'd probably check myself into some kind of clinic I couldn't be alone because without you I'm sick Here's my wish list First one, I would create a heart changing love Second one, I'll take yours and fill it all the way up Third one, but I don't need a lot of wishes cause I'll be okay if I get one If I had one wish, we would be best friends Love would never end, it would just begin If I had one wish, you would be my boo Promise to love you, trust me I'll trust you If I had one wish, we would run away Making love all day, have us a babyIf I had one wish, I'd make you my whole life And you'd be my wife, make it right this timeIf I had one wish I don't even know how we ended upon this road And, even though we are grown, Girl I just want you to know If I had one wish, we would be best friends Love would never end, it would just begin If I had one wish, you would be my boo Promise to love you, trust me I'll trust you If I had one wish, we would run away Making love all day, have us a baby If I had one wish, I'd make you my whole life And you'd be my wife, make it right this time

2007-03-04T04:24:00.000-08:00

I'm just a normal boyThat sank when I fell overboardMy ship would leave the countryBut I'd rather swim ashoreWithout a life vest I'd be stuck againWish I was much more masculineMaybe then I could learn to swimLike 'fourteen miles away'Now floating up and downI spin, colliding into soundLike whales beneath me diving downI'm sinking to the bottom of myEverything that freaks me outThe lighthouse beam has just run outI'm cold as cold as cold can bebeI want to swim away but don't know howSometimes it feels just like I'm falling in the oceanLet the waves up take me downLet the hurricane set in motion... yeahLet the rain of what I feel right now...come downLet the rain come downWhere is the coastguardI keep looking each directionFor a spotlight, give me somethingI need something for protectionMaybe flotsam junk will do just finethe jetsam sunk, I'm left behindI'm treading for my life believe me(How can I keep up this breathing)Not knowing how to thinkI scream aloud, begin to sinkMy legs and arms are broken downWith envy for the solid groundI'm reaching for the life within meHow can one man stop his endingI thought of just your faceRelaxed, and floated into space

into the ocean! blue october!

2007-03-02T06:48:00.000-08:00

its CHINESE NEW YEAR haha well it was rahter long ago haha but aint my niece just ADROABLE! hahah XD

damn shes so cute! haha and my brother well hes retarded haha (: haha

2007-02-27T00:59:00.000-08:00

BOOYA! haha tralalla!
CA1 has started but grr i dont' wnana freakining study! whee i wanna play till my body goes weak!
hahahah thats what i wanan do
but than agaiN! haha
i can't):
argh!
thats waht i hate about skl!
theres like freaking eams argh!
friggin' sucks to the CORE!

2007-02-24T21:41:00.000-08:00

HEYYA peeps! haha

i've fianlly made a google account and now i'm back..backt o blogging!! haha hoho! (: how friggin' cool is this dude!

mm well life has been pretty STRESSFUL lately.

can you believe it! i didn't go to skl on friday and WTF! so many projects and compos to do! wthwthwth!!!

and TMR! omg its like CA1 its friggn' starting and i'm startin' to worry agaiN!

i'm startin' to think maybe i can't do well this year but then again i HAVE to do well cause i'm 'repeatin' sec 3 ):

omg! this is like so argh! annoyin'!

omgg i have no idea what to do or waht to expect!

its so annoyin' larh!

2007-01-30T02:57:00.000-08:00

KILL THE WORLD!
MAKE IT A PLACE TO KILL!
days are nothing
days are worthless
days are priceless
GRR!
freak days!

2007-01-29T05:52:00.000-08:00

LISTEN i am alone in crossroads
I'm not at home in my own home
and i'm trying to say whats on my mind
YOU should have known
NOW i'm DONE believing you
I foundt he voice you think you gave to me
and now i've gotta FIND MY OWN!

-LISTEN-

2007-01-21T02:43:00.000-08:00

wah!
like wtf! i'm damn pissed larh! argh!
if you dont' want us just say so!
why the fish do you say it like behind my back?!
and in a tone that sucks to the core?
WHY!
theres no need to do that for you're info!
i know my limits so you stick to yours you ass!
dont' act like theres a need to call me you hear me!
it aint no matter if you call of not!
no DIFFERENCE!
so dont' think too HIGHLY of yourself cause... you're just like that__________
FLAT!!
MORPHODITE! go figure out !

2007-01-16T04:32:00.000-08:00

MANN!
stupid SS i tell yoU!
she kept us from having recess!
but argh! i gues we were at fault too
but well i didn't really hear her instructions clearly so..
i gues the teachers' always right!
what CRAP mann!
ahh! sick!
i'm like super duper pissed now!
omg!
my minds' too pissed to think!
SHIT i say!
SHIT!

2007-01-14T00:17:00.000-08:00

WHATS THE POINT
if you like someone JUST FREAKING SAY IT!
and if she rejects you than MOVE ON!
its simple as ABC!
you see her everyday in skl! and yet you're not making you're move!?
like *thinks*
WHATS YER PROBLEM!?
i'm not aiming you or whatsoever
but sometimes you need a reminder!

2007-01-12T22:46:00.000-08:00

In this world!! there are 2 kinds of people that live in it!
one is nice and well totally caring
the other is FAKE nice and totally FAKE caring!
sometimes you would wanna test that person and see if she/he is nice or not!
and well
when someone asks you a favour and you said YES!
why aren't you doing it?
Like is just an easy task as to like buy something !
like wtf! cant you freaking do it?!
but why buy the thing that someone wants and give it to someone who didn't even ask for it?
what kidna dumb logic is that?
total DUMBNESS!
so you think its nice doign this DUMB stupid thing isit?!
than omg your'e F***in' DUMB!
you hear me
i said you were DUMB!
and omg i you make someone close to me feel sad!
your'e gonna get it so bad !
WATCH OUT FREAKO your'e in for a harsh time with me!

2007-01-12T04:31:00.000-08:00

FOURTEEN MORE DAYS!

TILL MY BIRTHDAY!

SIXTEEN!

2007-01-10T04:10:00.000-08:00

It's a special bond that spans the years
Through laughter, worry, smiles and tears,
A sense of trust that can't be broken,
A depth of love sometimes unspoken,
A lifelong friendship built on sharing,
Hugs and kisses, warmth and caring,
Parent and child, their hearts as one -
A link that can never be undone.

2007-01-09T06:16:00.001-08:00

thats how i wanna feel or look like when i end this year!!

2007-01-09T06:16:00.000-08:00

thats how i wanna feel or look like when i end this year!!

hoho!

2007-01-06T06:25:00.000-08:00

wow 3 DAYS of skl passed so fast!
well today's the 3rd day!
and i ghuess everythings okay by now!
but somehow i still feel well weird inside!
well i'm still a stranger to theM!
argh
i hope my position as a 'stranger' would quickly go away !
thank gawd sarah is like there to help me thru it all!
shes been such a great partner to sit with!
THANKS lotsa!
<3 you!
oh well i just hope everything goes okay or rather FINE for the next 11 months!!
i still miss those ppl in sec 3B 2006!
aw mann!
its hard!
its like so hard to get retained in sec 3
aw mann!
well anyways i'll pull thru!
and oh my BIRTHDAYS COMING! woohoo!

):

2007-01-04T03:15:00.000-08:00

OH mann!!
2nd day!
it wasn't that bad
at least now pople call my name and stuff!!
haha and tmr
my friends coming over!!
woohoo((:
i'm super duper happy!!
can't wait to see HER!!

):

2007-01-03T03:32:00.000-08:00

MANN OH MANN!
skl started and well NIGHTMARE begined!
this was the first year of my life with out my friends by myside!
i'm in a whole new environment!
and each time i see my friends walk pass me in the corridors!
aw mann!
i feel like crying so badly!
i know that i'll be making new friends..but well the 'OLD' feeling just aint there no more!
the sounds the voices!
omg!
i've had a tough day today!
trying to fit in i guess!
trying to be accepted!
and trying not to be missing my friends so badly!
everythings changed!
syllibus!
literature!
no more MACBETH!(MY FAV)
but WHATHA HECK!
i'm still living!
so life has ta go on i suppose!
even tho i so badly want time to stop!
but time would never stop because of me!
i guess i'm not the only one who'd had a bad bad day!
manny manny others might have had it too!
but if they could survive so will i! (:
But i guess i'll need time
time to TRY and adapt to the new LIFE i have!
aw mann evern tho i so badly dont' wanna do that!
but i guess due to my dumbness!
i'll pay for it! ):

hoohah

2007-01-01T20:53:00.000-08:00

OH mann skls gonna open! FREAKK!
its my DOOMS day!
argh!
i hate it
i dread it!!
DAMN IT!
friends wont' be there with me!
NEW friends will come!
but whats the use!?
so reaked up!
ARGH!
stupid stupid!
I DREAD IT
so badly so badly!
AGRH AGRH AGRH!

<3333333333333

2006-12-31T21:28:00.000-08:00

HAPPY HAPPY NEW YEAR!

hoho haha

2006-12-29T06:41:00.000-08:00

i had lOTSA fun with BABYEE! haha
on christmas eve!
IT WAS SO MUCH FUN!
haha XD
there was this stupid 'beng' who freakking said hello to us
G-R-O-S-S!! *pukes pukes * haha
but whatever NO discrimination involved
its just taht 'bengs' are well soemtimes not considerate i guess haha
but i'm not saying that ALL bengs are like that!
there are well PRETTY many'bengs' that are somehow good by nautre!
THANK GAWD!

my gosh!

2006-12-28T06:46:00.000-08:00

I'VE GOT MY BLOG REVAMPED!
thanks to my pal! JEANNE!
agrh!
thanks babe
YOU'RE THE BEST!

2006-10-28T09:18:00.000-07:00

HEYYA
well lifes been pretty bad lately!
i just got retained
which well i'm kidna sad about
but hey life has to go on aint it! (:
well i'll just have to work THRICE as hard aslast year
and when i'm sec 4
HAHA
you'll see me score the best results anyone can get!
THATS A FACT!
XD
well anyways
life has many many ups and downs
and well i guess this is one of my downs
therefore i'll go UP UP UP and away!
AND never ever GO DOWN agaiN!(:

ALL MY FRIENDS IN 3B
you'll be missed my me ALWAYS!
you've(whole of 3B)given me the experience of a life time when i'm wit all of you
you gave me something which no class could and would ever have
you taught me the meaing of UNITY!
you showed me what friends are for!
therefore as a frien i'll never EVER forget the memories we all shared!
we've gone thru problems and i'm glad i'm a part of it! (:
from the bottom of my heart!
i <<33 you ALL!

2006-10-09T05:28:00.000-07:00

LIFE CHANGES AS TIMES GO BY
LIFE TURNS BAD AS SOME MIGHT SAY
LIFE MAY BE SWEET FOR THOSE WHO ENJOY!
BUT TO ME LIFE IS JUST SO STRESSING
DAY AND NIGHT I'LL PRAY
PRAY THAT MY LIFE WOULD END
END SO I WOULDN'T HAVE TO BE SO STRESSED ABOUT EVERY OTHER THING
THIS ISN'T THE LIFE I WANT OR I COULD HAVE FOUGHT FOR
I DON'T BLAME MY PARENTS FOR HAVING ME ONTO THIS WORLD
BUT I BLAME MYSELF
FOR ALLOWING ME TO BE BORN INTO THIS WORLD
FOR JUST SAYING THE WORD "OKAY" IN HER WOMB
FOR AGREEING!
I WISH
I PRAY
I HOPE
THAT IN MY NEXT LIFE
I WOULDN'T WANNA LIVE LIKE THIS

2006-10-06T19:04:00.000-07:00

Ohhhh, oh, oh, oh, ohhh.
It must have been cold there in my shadow,
to never have sunlight on your face.
You were content to let me shine, that's your way.
You always walked a step behind.

So I was the one with all the glory,
while you were the one with all the strength.
A beautiful face without a name for so long.
A beautiful smile to hide the pain.

Did you ever know that you're my hero,
and everything I would like to be?
I can fly higher than an eagle,
for you are the wind beneath my wings.

It might have appeared to go unnoticed,
but I've got it all here in my heart.
I want you to know I know the truth, of course I know it.
I would be nothing without you.

Did you ever know that you're my hero?
You're everything I wish I could be.
I could fly higher than an eagle,
for you are the wind beneath my wings.

Did I ever tell you you're my hero?
You're everything, everything I wish I could be.
Oh, and I, I could fly higher than an eagle,
for you are the wind beneath my wings,
'cause you are the wind beneath my wings.

Oh, the wind beneath my wings.
You, you, you, you are the wind beneath my wings.
Fly, fly, fly away. You let me fly so high.
Oh, you, you, you, the wind beneath my wings.
Oh, you, you, you, the wind beneath my wings.

Fly, fly, fly high against the sky,
so high I almost touch the sky.
Thank you, thank you,
thank God for you, the wind beneath my wings.

WIND BENEATH MY WINGS <<33

2006-10-05T01:51:00.000-07:00

When I look in your eyes I can see that you
Wanna be with me but you’re so scared
And I don’t know what to say or do
But the tears keep falling from your eyes
And I know that
Times won’t change my love
And I can’t do nothing to keep you

Oh, I’ll give my love oh when I hold you tight
Give my love through kisses oh so bright
And you know that I can’t change my love
Take my love all through the night…

As the hours pass away
You think that love aren’t here to stay
Feel a beat from your chest
But you don’t give doubt a moment’s rest
You dream the future and all you see is dark
Listen to your heart, baby, the truth will set sparks

Now I’ll give my love oh when I hold you tight
Give my love through kisses oh so bright
And you know that I can’t change my love
Take my love all through the night

Now I’ll give my love oh when I hold you tight
Give my love through kisses oh so bright
And you know that time won’t change my love
Take my love all through the night

I’ll give my love oh when I hold you tight
Give my love, through kisses oh so bright
And you know that I can’t change my love
Take my love all through the night

2006-10-01T03:51:00.000-07:00

HAHA WE AHD SO MUCH FUN EXPERIMENTING THE CAMERA! props to US!
hohoho XD

2006-09-26T07:15:00.000-07:00

My days are numbered
From the moment i was born into this world
From the time i was formed inside my mother's womb
Oh me oh my!
I don't wish to end my days in sheer sorrow!
I wanna do something for myself
But somehow
Everything i do doesn't seem to be right!
From the time i stpped into this world!

2006-09-20T07:32:00.000-07:00

Man days are filled with so much pain
why not we just leave this world
leave all these pain
leave all these sorrows
Why
why do we even go through so much pain?
why are we born in this world for?
days and nights
what we ever do is just study study
and if you get like hit results you'd be in trouble

to be continued...

2006-09-16T22:12:00.000-07:00

HELLO!

2006-09-14T03:52:00.000-07:00

I've got sunshine
On a cloudy day
When its cold outside
I've got the mother play
I guess you'd say
What can make me feel this way
My girl
Talking bout my girl

I've got soo much hoiney the bees kept for me
I've got the sweetest song than the bords int he trees
Well i guess you'd say
What can make me feel this way
My girl
Talking bout my girl

2006-09-06T02:59:00.000-07:00

WE HAD FUN! HAHA like my hair colour and geok's! haha
WE SO ROCK! uh huh uh huh!
MY DRAWING! uh huh!

2006-08-30T03:32:00.000-07:00

Days of my life i hunger for you
Days of my life i pray for you
Days of my life i'm loving you
Days past me just like this
Days change just like this
When will i ever make you see
That THOSE days were the best i've ever had!
Days with you made me happy
Days with you feel my with gladness
Days with you cure my hunger
Days with you protect my heart from getting hurt!

2006-08-29T03:31:00.000-07:00

DAYS without you were like days without food
you made my stomach full when i'm with you
you make me feel so happy when i'm with you
you're the one thing i need and thats all i'll ever need!
i wonder
how will i live without you in my life
DAYS in my life would be like so boring and senseless
DAYS in my life would never be the same if you were to go away
PLEASE!
don't you ever leave me
my life would be all blank!
DAYS would be days of sadness
Nights would be nights of sorrow

2006-08-27T02:16:00.000-07:00

Suddenly shes leaving
Suddenly the promise of love has gone
Suddenly breathing seems so hard to do
Carefully you planned it
I got to know just a minute too late
Now i understand it
All the times we made love together
Baby you were thinking of him
Why do i love you
Don't even want to
Why do i love you like i do
You should have told me
Why do i love you like i do!

2006-08-16T02:48:00.000-07:00

My heart
Says we've got something weird
Can i trust the way i feel
Cause my heart's been fooled before
And i
Just see in what i want to see
Or isit true could you really need
Someone to have and hold
With all my heart and soul
I need to know
Before i fall in love
Someone who'd stay around
Through all my ups and downs
Please tell me now
Before i fall in love

And at the point of no return
So afraid of getting burnt
But i want to take a chance
Oh please
Give me the reason to believe
Say you're the one
That you'll always be
Someone to have and hold
With all my heart and soul
I need to know
Before i fall in love
Someone whod stay around
Through all my ups and downs
Please tell me now before i fall in love

Its been so hard for me
To give my heart away
But i would gif my everything
Just to hear you say
Someone to have and hold
With all my heart and soul
I need to know
Before i fall in love
Someone who'd stay around
Through all my ups and downs
Please tell me now
Before i fall in love

-BEFORE I FALL IN LOVE-

don't let me be the last to know!

2006-08-11T02:53:00.000-07:00

your body language says so much
i feel it in the way you touch
till you say the words its not enuff
you wanna tell me you're in love
do't
don't let me be the last to know
don't hold back just let it go
i need to hear you say
you need me all the way
so if you love me so
don't
don't let me be the last to know

2006-08-07T23:33:00.000-07:00

If there were no words
No way to speak
I would still hear you
If there were no tears
No way to feel inside
I'd still feel for you
And even if the sun refuse to shine
Even if romance ran out of rhyme
You would still have my heart until the end of time
You're all i need
My love
My valentine
All of my life
I have been waiting here for all you give to me
You've opened up my eyes
And show me how to love unselfishly
I've dreamed of this a thousands times before
In my dreams i couldn't love you more
I'll give you my heart until the end of time
You're all i need my love
My valentine XD

2006-08-06T20:05:00.000-07:00

No one saw me like you do
All the things that i could add up to
I never knew just what a smile is worth
But your eyes say everything without a single word
Cause theres something in thew way you look at me
Its as if my heart knows youre the missing piece
You make me believe that theres nothing in this world i can't be
I never know what you see
But theres something in the way you look at me
If i could free some moments in my mind
Be the sec that you touched your lips to mine
I'd like to stop the clock make time stand still
Cause baby this is just the way i always wanna feel
Cause theres something in the way you look at me
Its as if my heart knows you're the missing piece
You make me believe that theres nothing
In this world i can't be
I'll never know what you see
But theres something in the way you look at me
I don't know how or why
i feel difference in your eyes
All i know is it happens everytime
Cause theres something in the way you look at me
Its as if my heart knows you're the missing piece
You make me believe that theres nothing in this world i can't be
I'll never know what you see
But theres something in the way you look at me
The way you look at me

2006-08-05T23:36:00.000-07:00

HAVE you ever wondered what it''ll be like if someone close to you were to jus dissapear
HAVE you ever wondered what kind of feeling would that be?
THE pain the sorrow
THE joys that you shared the tears that you cried
TIME cannot ever bring all those feelings back to me
THE sorrow and pain i'm having now..
ITS not that kida pain that i could ever forget
I'LL miss her cause i love her dearly
even tho times have seperated us and hses WAY older than me
but shes still stored DEEP down in my heart!
DAYS i've spent with her
YEARS i've been with her
mann all this time
i'll miss her so badly!
GRANNY I LOVE YOU! <3

kisses from mee!

BYE GRANNY <<<333 you'll always be in my heart!

2006-08-03T02:58:00.000-07:00

HOW COME EVERYTIME YOU COME AROUND
MY LONDON LONDON BRIDGE WANNA GO DOWN
LIKE
london london
WANNA GO DWONlike london london!

2006-08-02T02:52:00.000-07:00

MANN WE ARE SO SUPERLY SCAN*****!!!!
haha so cool i LOVE it!
hoho thanks manda! *KISSES*

2006-07-29T18:15:00.000-07:00

So you're the bitch who told that bitch that I was a bitch! So hear this bitch! It takes a bitch to know a bitch! BITCH!!
OMG ITS SO TRUE!

only bitches know each other!

2006-07-27T02:13:00.000-07:00

THIS BABYE!
MY ONE NAD ONLY BABAYE
LOVE YOU TO BITS!
I WANT YOU TO BITS
<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<33333333333

2006-07-25T00:55:00.000-07:00

WE...AFTER THE MUSICAL SING TO THE DAWN! haha
at YOUTH PARK! hoho
we had so much funn at the musical and OFF it
haha i thought "RIPPLES" were "NIPPLES"?
like whatha larh haah (: super funny mann!
haha
but overall the funn was there! haha

2006-07-20T07:05:00.000-07:00

i'll be there for you
this 5 words i SWEAR ta you
words can't say what LOVE CAN DO!

I'VE HAD A ROUGH LANDING LATELY
but no one seems to notice
no one seems to care
al the pain i've been thru
all the burden i've carried
you all
good for nothings
you're totaly heck about what stae i'm on
one moment you're like this
the next you're like that
WHATS WRONG WITH YOU!
i know its not rite to question
but i can't seem to control myself
this urge that i've been holding deep inside me
its gonna burst
and soon it'll explode
and than you'll all realize
but by than i'll be gone!

FROM THE TIME I MET YOU

2006-07-18T02:04:00.000-07:00

When I met you, my life could not have been in a worse state. My heart had been broken too many times to count and life just didn't seem worth living anymore. Then you came along.

From the first time I laid eyes on you, I knew that you would be someone that would make me smile again. You had such a warm, soft look on your face that I knew there was comfort and friendship in your heart. We started out as friends and you were the rock I needed in my life. I soon began to realize that what I was feeling for you was more than a friendship... something so overwhelming and wonderful that I couldn't even believe it myself. You opened my heart to new and wonderful things! You showed me what love really is and showed me that I was worth loving.

What I thought was love in my past, I now know was only a small taste of the love to come. You have given me hope, fulfilled dreams, and given me a reason to go on. You have helped me become a better person and a better friend. You have completed me in more ways than you could ever imagine! The love you have given to me is sometimes so hard to believe that I still have to pinch myself to make sure it's really in my life!

I love you so very much, Sweetheart, always and forever! I'm so very thankful to share this unbelievable like with you! I like you, my angel!!!

2006-07-18T01:20:00.000-07:00

wanna see how muscular my legs are?
OH MAN so freakie!
hoho! (:
but HEY i liek them! THEY ROCK!
but don't look at the face
i didnt
i know what i was doing haha (:
oopsa!

SEXY LOVE

2006-07-13T06:45:00.000-07:00

Sexy love
Do the things you do
Keep me strong
Keep me running back to you
Oh i love making love toyoU!
Baby girl
You know
You're my SEXY LOVE!

-SEXY LOVE- by NE-YO!

mann this song ROCKS!

2006-07-11T07:03:00.000-07:00

WHAT DID YOU LEARN AT SCHOOL TODAY?

THATS WHAT THE TEACHERS UESED TO SAY
but they don't know
they do not care do they

-SAMSEN TEENAGE-

teenage song!
who know it?
please tell me XD!

2006-07-03T05:44:00.000-07:00

Well this pic was taken durin SYF! hoho! (:
me and felicia well we had LOTSA LOTSA fun! (: haha
after the syf that is! haha((:
how cool is that! look at the pic manns! haha how cool is that! hoho
its BLUE! haha

2006-07-03T02:23:00.000-07:00

haha we took this pic at a cofee shop! ._." !!
HAHA but i guess we had lotsa fun ! haha hoho
wel i guess i'll think of what to post LATER!

2006-06-23T00:28:00.000-07:00

OMG!
i went to watch JUST MY LUCK!
and well its the kidna show that many girls out tehre dream of watching i guess haha thats what i think! haha
cause casue the guy in the show..CHRIS PINES! omgg!
he is like the HOTTIE of that show!
like totally hot alert dudes!
and lindsay just adds the SPICE which makes them perfect!
And and and and and!!!

THE HOTTEST HOTTEST "thing" was MCFLY!
dude they can ACT!
not bad if i can say!

2006-06-21T00:42:00.000-07:00

BABE who lives like a FABE
come to me like i wanna come to yoU!
Show me every single bit of what you've got
Show me all the wrongs and rights in LIFE
Show me whats The world made off!
Give me strength to carry on
This long and winding path!
Give me strength to FUCK those who Fuck me OFF!

I PRAY

2006-06-20T23:58:00.000-07:00

Dear lord,I pray every single day that you'd make me the best person ever.
The best person the world can ever find
The best person a friend can have.
I thank you each and every single day for making me the person i am today
Without you my life would be messy and uncallled for.
Now thanks to you!
I've found my path!
The path that i wanna take
The path that was made andplanned for me!
I thank you agian..
You've done so much for me!
You've even gave me a special person and 3 good friends to guide me thru my life!
I THANK YOU YET AGAIN..

FOREVER AND ALWAYS

2006-06-15T01:59:00.000-07:00

You are a part of my life in so many ways
And you I will love for the rest of my days
Time can’t change the way I feel
For I love you now
And I always will.
It seems like forever since we’ve been apart
I wish we could go back
and make a fresh start
Then if you left
I’d miss you I know
But tell you I love you
and then let you go
But the past is over
I cant change it now
I want to be with you
but I just don’t know how
So I’ll think of you always and the way it use to be
Because you are so very special to me

2006-06-14T07:50:00.000-07:00

don't think you will
ever fully understand
how you've touched my life
and made me who I am.

I don't think you could ever know
just how truly special you are
that even on the darkest nights
you are my brightest star.

I don't think you will ever fully comprehend
how you've made my dreams come true
or how you've opened my heart
to love and the wonders it can do.

You've allowed me to experience
something very hard to find
unconditional love that exists
in my body, soul, and mind.

I don't think you could ever feel
all the love I have to give
and I'm sure you'll never realize
you've been my will to live.

You are an amazing person
and without you I don't know where I'd be.
Having you in my life
completes and fulfills every part of me

(written by <33 )

I<3YOU! haha

2006-06-13T01:14:00.000-07:00

I wish i was a PUNK rocker with flowers in my hair
77&69 revolution was in the air!
I was born to live to a world that doesn't care!

(I WISH I WAS A PUNK ROCKER WITH FLOWERS IN MY HAIR)

2006-06-12T07:32:00.000-07:00

I got your back
You got mine,
I'll help you out
Anytime.
To see you hurt
To see you cry,
Makes me weep
And wanna die.
And if you agree
To never fight,
It wouldn't matter
Who's wrong or right.
If a broken heart
Needs a mend,
I'll be right there
To the end.
If your cheeks are wet
From drops of tears,
Don't you worry,
Let go of your fears.
Hand in hand
Love is sent,
We'll be friends
Till the end

2006-06-09T09:52:00.000-07:00

The memories that you gave me
Were the bestest that I could ever ask for
But suddenly it all seemed to fade away
And never will it come back again
I know it sounds kinda absurd
But I just want you to be assussured
That I’ll be fine
So good luck to you
And never forget me as now we’re like normal friends
Living in a normal world
Filled with fantasies
That will never come true
I'M ALWAYS HERE for you and that’s a fact
Never will I leave you in the lurch!
Know that love will always come your way again
That’s a Guarantee (:
No matter how life would treat you

2006-06-01T07:08:00.000-07:00

FREAKS

2006-05-23T01:25:00.000-07:00

YOU LEFT ME
You left me for someone you knew for less than a year
You left me casue you think she was nicer than i am!
You left me because of al the wrong reasons
It was a misunderstanding
It was terrible MISUNDERSTANDING!
I wanna clear that misundersanding
But you wouldn't give me a chance to explian!
I love you!
And i STILL do!
I'll keep on loving you even if time changes yoU!
You'll never be replaced in my HEART, MIND and soul!
You're the only one who could make me the happiest person in the world!
I want you back so BADLY!
But no matter what i do
You never seem to have any reactionns!
But hey i hope you find hte happiness you deserve
Cause i know my happiness will never be found EVER AGAIN!..

2006-05-22T01:54:00.000-07:00

In another life

In anohter place

I'd have held you close

I'd have know your face

In another life

In another place

YOU'D BE MINE!

2006-05-20T00:35:00.000-07:00

FUCK YOU MOTHAFUCKER!

DIE!

2006-05-16T00:15:00.000-07:00

Oh the day you left me
The day you ran away
The day you deserted me
I will never ever forget those hurtful things yer said to me
All those lies you lied!
All those pain you gave me
Were all for yer own darn pleasure!
But hey
You aint taking me back NO more!!
I'm living my OWN life
SO WHAT THE HELL!
go live your own and stop bothering me!
Go away
Migrate
FOR ALL I CARE
YOU'RE JUST nothing to ME
NOTHING!